I was tucking Amelia into bed tonight. She's getting a cold or a cough or something yucky and she's not feeling great, but that doesn't stop her from wanting to chat. Tonight's one more thing mommy moment was on plants.
"Mommy, this week in school we've been talking about plants. And what do you think a plant needs to grow?"
"Well, I would say water and sunlight and dirt..."
"That's all true, but do you know what I think is the most important thing?"
"What's that, La?"
"Love! Do you think plants need love to grow?"
"Oh yes I do! They do need love! The plants that are my favorite and that I talk to and love as I'm taking care of them grow much better than the plants that I don't take as much time with."
"Kinda like us with God, huh?"
Standing in her doorway with tears in my eyes, I smiled at her and agreed.
"Yes, Amelia. Just like us with God."
"Yeah...that's what I thought. We grow better when we have God's love. I'm so happy that we have God's love! That will help us to grow into great people!"
"Yes, Amelia! We can do anything with God's love!"
"Good night, mommy! I'm glad that I have God's love AND your love! I'm pretty blessed!"
"We are all blessed sweetheart. Good night!"
That conversation was the perfect ending to my day. I had a day today that revealed God's love to me in ways I had never experienced. This was revealed to me in the kindness of complete strangers. It is safe to say that my life the past few years has been a nightmare. A roller coaster of emotions and feelings and the absence of love and peace. And today I was renewed in life as I realized that God loves me! God has planted me here in this life for some reason and he is nurturing me and growing me for a greater good and I need to rest in His love! He showers His love upon me as He is growing me to be what He needs me to be.
In the mess of everything that has happened I lost sight of many things. I held hate and fear and sadness and blame and guilt in my heart. And with new eyes I experienced the love of God, my Heavenly Father and my faith has been renewed. All we need is love! The love of God! The love of friends and family! The love of other human beings. But mostly the love of God. Bit by bit, little by little, I am learning his plan for me in this world. I am realizing what He needs from me. I am coming to know his plan in all of this mess and chaos. But for now, I'm closing my eyes, taking a second, and realizing and feeling His deep love for me, for my girls, and for everyone!
What an amazing feeling! Unconditional love! Just watch us grow!
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